The first year of motherhood has been the biggest and best thing I’ve ever done. My lowest lows and highest highs all smashed into 365 days (not to mention the 9 months spent incubating prior to that). As I reflect on a whole year of sinking deeper and deeper into this new version of me, I have so much to celebrate. So much fierceness to feel proud of. I’ll never forget when I turned to my midwife in the moments after being sewn up. She asked me how I was feeling and I just said ‘I feel like a bad…

To the mothers who are becoming mothers during global crisis. The viral pandemic that has stripped us of what we expected. What is normal. What we had hoped this would be.

To the mamas who place their hands on growing wombs and put masks on their faces. Paranoia clutching at them as they go to appointments and work. That deep settling sadness for no celebration before the birth. No gathering with loved ones to dote on growing baby and glowing mama.

To the mamas who wipe tears as they go to another ultrasound alone. The absence of their partners feeling…

There’s a scene in the docuseries, ‘Expecting Amy’ when someone asks Amy Schumer if she resents being pregnant. She replies saying, “I don’t resent being pregnant, I resent everyone who hasn’t been honest. I resent the culture and how much women have to suck it the f*ck up and act like everything’s fine.”

I’ve been hesitant to share this post because that exact culture has permeated my brain. As a mom, it’s widely conceived that even when things feel really dark, you’ll cherish and love the moment. …

To my baby, my son, my sweet sweet boy

Thank you for coming into my world and turning it on its head

For teaching me more than I ever thought possible in such a short time

I am willing myself to not forget one moment of it

To imprint it in my mind

The first few months were hard

They were hard and incredible and painful and transforming

My baby, my sweet little guy

You’re teaching me the true meaning of patience

Of sitting with discomfort

Of real impermanence

Nothing is more true of watching you grow

That the only…

To all the things I didn’t know about the beginning of motherhood. To the hours, days, and weeks after birth. To the things I didn’t know because I couldn’t know. I couldn’t know them until the force of this shift crashed over me, swallowed me up, and swept me away into its messy and wonderous waves.

To the initial moments, the cries from both baby and me. The relief, joy, and new looming fears. To the surrealness of it all. Bringing baby home while still unable to see that I was a mother and this was my son. To the…

I’m just over six weeks postpartum and in no way am I an expert in any of this newborn stuff, but I do know what it is I absolutely could not live without at this point. A couple mamas-to-be asked me to put this list together, so I have! Thank you for reaching out and expressing that you value what I have to say — feels so good. I really hope that this list helps you to narrow down what products will be right for you and your baby. And as an aside, I feel like it would be disingenuine…

I gave birth to our son Malcolm Eli on Friday February 21, 2020 at 11:02am. I was 39 weeks and 2 days pregnant. I have spent 5 weeks reflecting on my labour and delivery. I still sometimes catch myself back in some of the particularly excruciating moments and well up with tears, my body tensing as I relive it. I went into labour with nearly no expectations. I was nervous about the pain and wondered how I would handle it. I was fairly determined to have an unmedicated birth and preferred that the setting be the Birth Centre in Toronto…

photo by Raylene Turner

I put this list together to share with you the resources, products, and practices that I’ve used throughout my pregnancy. I definitely don’t claim to know it all, but I would have loved to have had all of these ideas in one place when I was in my early pregnancy. These aren’t in any particular order and are a bit random, but you’ll find that pregnancy can be as equally random and unpredictable, so buckle up!

What to Expect

There are many pregnancy tracker apps out there and I tried a few from the start. I settled on What to Expect because of…

2019 was a year of resounding YES for me. And all of it has led to this moment here, as I sit and feel the baby kicking in my belly, reminding me of how quickly and incredibly life can evolve. What I really want to share with you is my experience of being pregnant and how I feel it has fundamentally changed who I am. But I can’t ignore the lead up to getting pregnant which began last January when my partner asked me to marry him.

Marriage wasn’t something we had planned. In fact, we had talked about it…

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It’s been nearly 5 months since I’ve written a blog post, 4 months since I’ve sent a newsletter, and over a month since I’ve published a podcast episode. I’ve been silent because, honestly, I am wrestling with the point of all of this.

After taking myself off Instagram and stepping into some new personal development, it’s made me question a lot. In addition to this questioning, I had the most incredible opportunity to travel for a month at the start of the year and something about being unplugged for that long tipped me into this space of introspection that I…

Brittany Masson

courage. motherhood. self discovery.

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