To My Baby
To my baby, my son, my sweet sweet boy
Thank you for coming into my world and turning it on its head
For teaching me more than I ever thought possible in such a short time
I am willing myself to not forget one moment of it
To imprint it in my mind
The first few months were hard
They were hard and incredible and painful and transforming
My baby, my sweet little guy
You’re teaching me the true meaning of patience
Of sitting with discomfort
Of real impermanence
Nothing is more true of watching you grow
That the only constant is change
And that I am simply a witness to it all
I can’t slow time
I can’t turn it back
But I can be with you and present and here
My baby, my happy boy
I love to love on you
To nuzzle into your neck
To smell your sweet breath
To caress your impossibly smooth skin
To feel your weight in my arms
The way your head melts into my chest
To see you light up when our eyes meet
To work endlessly for your giggles
To come to you when you cry
To count your arm rolls
1, 2, 3
To cheer you on as you grow more curious
More aware and eager to move
I love the way you fall asleep in my arms after I feed you at night
Gazing at your peaceful face, as you rest on my shoulder
Lingering here for just a minute longer
To make sure I don’t take for granted that one day these moments will be gone
My baby, my love
Thank you for teaching me about my own strength
For showing me how resilient and incredible my body is
That my mind can handle a whole lot more than I thought it could
Thank you for challenging me and your daddy
Our shared love for you and our love for each other keeps bringing us back to harmony
Thank you for growing in your own time
For showing me that you will change when you’re ready to
Thank you for being such a light
I can already see your spark and the way that you bring our family so much joy
Even as a tiny soul, you are impacting people around you
How lucky I am to nourish and nurture you
How lucky I am to live this life next to you
How lucky I am to be your mom
